Mineee.

2012-01-20T12:57:00.001+08:00

太不成熟了。

要比就要和强者比，

跟弱者比较只会侮辱了我自己。

我承认这次我并没有尽我全能，让很多人失望。

我，须要反省。

2012-01-18T11:52:00.003+08:00

只想告诉你们

如果不是真的没有办法，郁闷到需要人来说话

我是绝对，绝对不会烦或打扰到你们

但是算了，我明白有时候做人就是要自私点

我以后都不会再麻烦你们

有事也请你们不要来找我，我没那么多时间听你们诉苦说废话

我也不会在意我说的话会不会伤害到你们任何一位

唔好嚟烦7我

唔该晒

2012-01-11T23:00:00.001+08:00

很多事情错过了就是错过了

2012-01-10T19:45:00.002+08:00

人生有几多个十年?

2011-12-23T12:18:00.002+08:00

其实最近一直都有在写网志，只是我真的没有勇气把它们放上来

最近的生活不是那么的好，也不算太坏

看淡了很多事，处事思考也变得较冷静

我会学着去喜欢我现在的生活

我很好，不用担心 :)

2011-12-23T11:53:00.001+08:00

是我不应该让你走进我的生活

2011-12-07T21:47:00.002+08:00

妈, 对不起

又忍不住在您面前哭了

我知道您比任何人都更心疼

我真没用

2011-11-28T12:45:00.007+08:00

Sorry but I just have to say this..

I cannot stand people who think that love is EVERYTHING.

I mean like, there are so many other things that are far important than love. What I'm talking about here is girl-boy relationship that kind of love so shuddup.

I seriously don't get these people. I know I've got no right to say much on this matter, or I don't even have the right to say anything. But how could you even think of committing suicide IT'S NOT LIKE IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD.

Don't say things like oh "can't live without you" or "forever" that kind of shit. Ask yourself, do you really believe in forever? Can you really guarantee that the person you love now is gonna be eventually the person you're gonna end up with? Can you say that the person you love now is still gonna be that same person even after 10 years? Things change, people change, your perspective and the way you look at things will change too as you get older. Think about it.

You have family and friends who love you dearly and truly care about you, you don't have to worry about money and not being able to pay for your education, and you should be thankful for what you have especially when you're not struggling with any physical or mental disabilities. So what else you want now?

GOD. BUDDHA. YA ALLAH.

Seriously, what's on your mind? Are you seeking for attention or what?

Talking about seeking for attention, I'm starting to really dislike people posting pictures of themselves EVERY SINGLE DAY with different poses (which are all clearly taken on the SAME day in the SAME place at the SAME time).

Okay, I admit I do that sometimes too, and just SOMETIMES. Okay, now what's wrong with you Yong Carmen. Let's not talk about this.

So yeah. Had a look at my blog page just now and realized it's all in Chinese wtf. I wasn't trying to be emo, I just needed a place to rant and express how I feel, that's all.

Back to study now! Finals in a week fml.

原来

2011-11-25T22:14:00.011+08:00

我不喜欢吵杂人多的地方

不喜欢身边有太多的人

有时的我甚至不介意身边有没有朋友

我喜欢一个人工作

一个人读书

一个人逛街购物

一个人享受自己的空闲时间

很多的事情我都喜欢一个人独自行动

这样反而让我觉得更轻松

但我很害怕一个人吃饭

很怕一个人静静地走在街上

很怕一个人静静地坐在一旁

我以为我只是不喜欢吵闹

可是原来我更害怕安静

因为当我一个人静下来思考时

无论在什么地方什么时间

不知道为什么眼泪都会忍不住流下

原来

在一个没有人认识的地方

反而可以让我更容易掉泪

2011-11-21T23:30:00.006+08:00

不要问我到底好不好有没有事

那是我最不想也是最不懂得回答的问题

2011-11-20T21:06:00.004+08:00

今天的我

把仅剩的那一丁点自尊心都给毁了

杨嘉雯

你是我见过，最烂的人

2011-11-19T16:32:00.002+08:00

可能

我就是不属于这个地方

2011-11-19T14:15:00.005+08:00

这几天心情糟透了，但能怎样？

发脾气乱丢东西大喊大叫大哭一场吗？

不可以。

只能忍住泪水挂上笑容告诉自己，

“你根本不需要任何人，相信自己就可以了”

2011-11-18T00:33:00.004+08:00

Saved this as draft few days ago, didn't know what was on my mind at that time (and I still don't, well, maybe I do), planned to delete but you know what..

DAMN I'M JUST GONNA PUBLISH THIS NOW

*SHAMELESS HAHAHA WTF

可能有点自大，但真的觉得自己超厉害

两个月里平均每天睡两三个小时

看见自己完成的工后都替自己感到骄傲

超神好不好，连我自己都很佩服我自己

2011-11-18T00:15:00.008+08:00

如果我妈没告诉我

可能我自己也不会察觉到

不知道从几时开始

我的笑容已经变得越来越少了

总是愁眉苦脸，让人觉得很难亲近

常为不是我该担心的事情而担心，为不该烦恼的事而烦恼

面对着不该是我这个年纪应该面对的事情，承受着一些我不该承受的压力

太多太多的事情，想说想发泄，但却不能对任何人说而只能收在心里

这一切让我久而久之地，笑容也变得越来越少

但她可能不知道，我反倒觉得很庆幸

就是因为有了这些烦恼有了这些负担，反而让我有了更大的动力

我承认

有时候的我会埋怨，会耍脾气，会觉得老天很不公平，觉得全世界的人都得罪了我

但是我从不会质疑为什么我会在这种环境下成长，从不会为自己的出身而感到羞愧

如果要我像别人一样

从出生开始就过着无忧无虑的生活，每天只会读书吃喝玩乐谈情说爱

可能我这辈子都还会是个长不大的小女孩

所以我很庆幸

我没有想象中的那么坚强，但每一次一次发生的事情让我更加的觉得我必须背起这些负担，跌倒了必须站起，必须面对这一切，必须为我自己我家人而奋斗

我就是要有骨气，就是不要输，就是要比别人厉害

只要肯比别人多努力点，比别人多用心点，比别人多付出点，我一定做到

现在的路难走算什么，吃的苦又算什么，总比在非洲的难民过得好

就是多了那么一丁点的坚持与自信

我，一定能继续坚持地走下去

Random random.

2011-11-07T13:35:00.013+08:00

Hi, this is how I look like right now.

Okay, maybe not.

Because my eye bags are getting worse now thanks to assignments, uni work and..

tv dramas wtf. *feeling guilty

Macha shaved ice with red bean? Can't remember the name.

Tried this with mum at ZenQ the other day and surprisingly, its not that bad. Because their promotion RM1 milktea is seriously..well, I prefer not to make any comments here.

Camera shy!

Haa, who am I trying to kid.

Mum's birthday cake.

She was actually thrilled to see the colourful birthday candles.

Colourful stuff makes one happy! :)

Love this picture, mum and brother look really good here :)

Loh Poh Peng brother bought in HK.

So yeap, just feel like updating :)
Good day everyone!

2011-11-04T22:19:00.014+08:00

眼泪又再次不听使唤地滑下

到底是为了什么?

家人是什么? 朋友又是什么?

不知道从什么时候开始

我已经不懂得怎样用真心对待别人了

突然觉得自己, 真的好虚伪

2011-11-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

我很清楚知道, 我怀念的只是过去的一切

2011-10-25T22:06:00.003+08:00

心情, 复杂.

2011-10-24T19:58:00.003+08:00

Black & white.

Mentaiyaki spider roll, my favourite - at Sushi Zanmai.

Pork burger, 3 Little Pigs - at The Hungry Hog, SS15.

Ruco Chan & Kenneth Ma - at Summit USJ.

2011-10-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

《听说》

2011-10-11T23:11:00.004+08:00

　爱情和梦想都是很奇妙的东西，不用听，不用说，不用被翻译，就可以感受到。

　　──《听说》

"真正的爱情，我想就应该像白开水那样，清清淡淡的，永远不会让人感到腻味"

2011-10-02T15:00:00.008+08:00

今天，我才发觉到

我想要的东西

其实很简单

我并不需要很聪明

因为，有时候，头脑简单的，反而是活得最开心的人

我并不需要很漂亮

因为，人，总会有老的一天

我并不需要很有钱

因为，钱不是万能

它没有办法给我换来幸福

我并不需要有很多很多的朋友

真正知心的，一个就够了

我并不需要有很大很大的房子

我，不希望它只是个空壳

一个完整的家

父母的关心

兄妹间的打闹

其实，已经够了

但最讽刺的是

我想要的

可能是我一辈子都不会拥有的

哥，

我真的好想，好想你

2011-10-01T21:09:00.004+08:00

All time favourite :)

Smoked pork shank & jelly fish, Dragon-I

Mocha/Black

2011-08-03T21:50:00.004+08:00

The feeling you get when you can't find someone to talk to..

2011-07-31T21:46:00.002+08:00

"Show people who you are, if they don't like it, then don't worry about it.

Don't try to change yourself because a few people disapprove - there are over six billion of us and you can't please everyone."

2011-04-25T21:53:00.006+08:00

I think I just injured my back few days ago.

To be specific, my lower back near my butt wtf I'm not even kidding. It hurts so much when I sleep, stand up, sit down, bend, sneeze or cough.

Don't even ask me how I injured it.

I think A LOT and I worry too much maybe you'll think I'm silly..but I was really scared. So scared that I even cried when I told my parents about it because 好死不死 I've just read an article the day before I injured my back, about how a slight shift of the bones can actually cause paralysis.

Even though it still hurts, I feel much better (not about the pain but fear) now. I really appreciate my family, and friends who actually care and make me feel that I am loved. HEHE I feel so pampered wtf.

Well I hope it's nothing serious.

2011-04-08T17:27:00.004+08:00

Konnichiwa, my name is Kitty and I'm going to show you some pictures of mine today.

Hello Kitty Pudding

Hello Kitty Cake

Hello Kitty Sushi

Hello Kitty Burger

Hello Kitty Bento

Hello Kitty Mini Pizzas

Hello Kitty Cupcake

Yes you can actually see my faces on the food! HEE.

Now let me take you to my Hello Kitty House.

This is the front view

Living Room

Dining Room

Beautiful isn't it? HEE.

Oh, people make flowers of my face too!

And buses. HEE.

I have my own shop too!

Last but not least,

:( :( :(

How could they be so cruel??

2011-03-24T20:29:00.003+08:00

http://twitter.com/ycarmen92

I tweet more than I blog/facebook, so yeah.

2011-02-25T00:19:00.002+08:00

Okay I don't know how to start with this, it's harder than writing an essay.

This is for you, Lim Wei Jun.

I don't usually say things like this but honestly,

I am always grateful to have a friend like him.

Because he's the one who laughs at my jokes even when it's not funny.

Haa okay I admit, because I always force him to laugh la why cannot is it.

Because he helps me all the time and gives me advices when I needed them, especially when I was having a hard time moving on with..something.

Because he understands me so well, and knows me so much better than anyone else does, sometimes even better than I know myself.

And also because I always act like a 3 year old kid yet he never says that I'm annoying. BUT I KNOW HE THINKS THAT I AM.

Nevertheless, thank you for bearing with me and my tantrums all the time.

So yeah.

Thank you for everything, happy birthday best friend :)

2011-02-22T00:48:00.001+08:00

Chingu, nan seul peo yo.. Otoke?

2011-01-18T22:40:00.003+08:00

:O

I like Dream High. A lot.

I love both male leads. Omg.

I must really stop watching Korean dramas.

I have a test tomorrow. What to dooo?

2011-01-15T23:49:00.006+08:00

This is another post.

I must be crazy.

I had a nightmare yesterday night.

Meng li de qing jing tai ke pa le. Wo mei shi guo ku de na me qi can. Sui ran zhi shi zai meng li, dan shi wo xian zai hai neng gan shou dao dang shi xing li de kong ju, hai pa, shang tong..ru guo zhen de you zhe me yi tian, gai zen me ban?

2011-01-15T23:07:00.005+08:00

I'm not in a rational state right now so please forgive me if what I am going to say below offends any of you.

1. Okay. I HATE people who do things unorganized and leave their work undone or just simply do it for the sake of doing it and cincai pass their LOW quality work to the others to correct their rubbish. Seriously, dai lei sei for getting bad results.

2. People who always say things (negative ones) without considering about others' feelings = TTLY. Who are you to comment on things that other people do? It’s none of your business, seriously, get a life.

3. Cinas who try to act banana suck. They pretend that they can't write or speak Chinese yet they speak broken English. Act what banana save la you.

4. Know your standard before you wanna compare with other people or try to put them down. Don't malukan yourself in front of other people please. Han d la yeng sui sai.

If you think that I’m exaggerating things or being real childish now..yes but I don't give a shit. Just shut up, COMMENTS ARE NOT NEEDED HERE THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

That’s it. I’m so angry with everyone and everything right now I cannot think properly. Back to my assignments now, hmph

2010-12-01T21:08:00.014+08:00

I hate using the word stress because it is fucking annoying to see people always complaining how stressed they are because of some tiny little things they face each day. Seriously.

I hate myself for saying this as well but I'M STRESSED (and depressed) TOO RIGHT NOW. This is the first time I feel stressed in college. Sometimes I wonder if there are people who have actually died from stress or emotional pain wtf.

I’m fine with the amount of work given, whether it’s homework, quizzes, topic tests, presentations or assignments.

But a 10-page research paper is really too much I tell you.
IT'S KILLING ME. Yes 5000 words and I'm complaining. I suck.

I don't think I will have time to study for next week's tests also T__________T

I have not been sleeping well lately and I swear I look very much like a zombie now especially in college. T____________T

Come to think of it, a 10-page thesis paper is really nothing.

NOTHING especially when you know that there’s this 25-30 pages thesis report ahead waiting for you after this. FML.
A 25-page long report. This, is really SOMETHING.

I should stop now because I don’t even know what am I talking about already.
That's it, bye.

2010-10-31T00:20:00.002+08:00

I'm not gonna deny it..

I'm a sucker for guys with nice (and CUTE) smiles.

MY NEW LOVE,

NICHKHUN FROM 2PM.

Kim Hyun Joong is still my love, but hey, Nichkhun is cute too!

Off to watch We Got Married! Ahhhhh Nichkhun!

Haha Xiau Fong, I still haven't watched Kim Hyun Joong's part yet. I will, SOON :D

2010-10-19T12:58:00.003+08:00

Things I want/have to do right after my finals:

Watch Playful Kiss! Oh, my Kim Hyun Joong.

Reply messages and comments on Facebook.

Shopping/hanging out/yum cha sessions with my kawans.

Work out!

Update this dead thing.

Off to study now, see you! :)

2010-10-08T23:41:00.010+08:00

It's been a long time.

To be honest, I had the thought of giving up and abandoning my blog initially. I don't feel like talking about my college/work/relationships/love/family (in brief, my life) here anymore. I don't wanna share my personal life or even feelings with the people I hardly know on the site. But then again, this is the only place where I can vent my anger or 'scream' out loud.

Oh blog, thank you for staying with me through thick and thin.

Back to topic, life has been kind of hectic lately, semester 2 is coming to an end. Soon, I have to really start to think and decide on what I want to be, what I'm gonna do in the future, and what I want to do with my life. Nobody's gonna make decisions for me this time. This, is my life.

Anyway, I have just finished all my assignments for this semester (yes? no?) and it feels so good! Yes I do know that I have to start studying now for my finals but whatever, I'll do that later.

Actually, the main reason for me to be here today is to show you what I've done for my English assignment. Hah, just part of it though.

It's a feature news article and we're free to choose our own topic. I'll just 'copy and paste' what I wrote and add some comments below.

99% my own work, with the help of the information from internet of course :)

Korea’s Top Five Hottest Male Idols
By YONG CARMEN

‘Idol fever’ has been the hottest topic of the Korean entertainment industry for the past few years. The Korean wave, also known as Hallyu, has started during the 1990s.

However, the wave has recently begun to spread throughout Asia and all over the world tremendously. This can be proven by just seeing the increasing number of Korean dramas and K-pop music. At the same time, the number of idols debuting has been constantly rising and the average ages of the idols are getting lower, most of them in their early 20s.

“Korea is like the next epicentre of pop culture in Asia,” says Jessica Kam, vice president for MTV Networks Asia. This is seen as a positive growth and impact to Korea.

Korean solo artists such as Rain, Se7en and BoA are rather popular and gaining attention internationally, while Korean idol groups with powerful dance skills, music talents and good looks such as Super Junior, DBSK, Big Bang, SNSD, SHINee and many others are fairly well-known all over the world.

The emergence of these good-looking Korean male idols with overflowing charisma has certainly captured the hearts of many female audiences.

Now let us look at the top five hottest Korean male celebrities who have tons of screaming fans. (Actually there's only one guy that I really like out of these five, the rest are randomly selected when browsing through the net.) Girls want to be with them and boys want to be like them! (HAHAHA WHY AM I SO FUNNY.)

KIM JAE JOONG

Debuted with the name YoungWoong JaeJoong, also known as Hero, he is amember of Korea’s most popular boy band Dong Bang Shin Ki and the main vocal of the group.

Selected from an audition of 5000 people, he won the first place for the best looking and best vocals award from SM Entertainment.

Hero was once voted as the prettiest Asian man in a poll organised by China’s Xingkong TV channel.

“He has just the right combination of ridiculous good looks, well built body and lovable quirky personality. Plus, he can cook!”

He definitely has a great, masculine body in contrast to his feminine face.

(Well, I don't dislike him. But this pretty boy is definitely not my cup of tea.)

KIM HYUN JOONG

Leader of the Korea boy band SS501, Kim Hyun Joong has gained his popularity throughout Asia as an idol.

He is famous for his role as Yoon Ji Hoo in Korea hit drama series Boys Over Flowers in 2009 and won the popularity award for the male artists at the 45th Baek Sang Arts Awards. He is recently rated on Section TV as the hottest in Korea.

“He has a gorgeous mega-watt smile that could melt your heart and light up the whole city.”

How can you not love his smile?

(Who says that he's not hot enough to be put into this top five thing? Gosh, there must be something wrong with you. But whatever, KIM HYUN JOONG IS MY LOOOOVE.)

CHOI SI WON

Si Won is the vocalist of Korean Popular Boy Band Super Junior debuted in 2005. He has earned his popularity after starring in the Korean drama Oh! My Lady.

Although his vocal skills is relatively weaker compared to the other members, he is one of the more popular members of Super Junior.

Si Won is also well-known in Hong Kong and China as he appeared in the Hong Kong war film "A Battle of Wits" withAndy Lau as the young prince, Liang Shi.

Being known as the hottest guy with the hottest body in the group Super Junior, Si Won was also awarded as the sexiest guy in Korea.

(Not a Super Junior fan, didn't know he existed until I did some research on the net for this article. He's okay I guess.)

CHOI SEUNG HYUN (T.O.P)

Better known as T.O.P in the Korean boy band Big Bang, he is the rapper and vocalist of the group. He is also talented in beat-boxing.

He has this bad boy image with deep voice and piercing eyes that makes him stand out from the rest of the group.

T.O.P has also been in dramas such as I Am Sam and KBS’s hit series IRIS.

T.O.P was voted as Mnet's Top 100 "Must Have" Males for 2007 and has recently gotten the first place as the top womanizing idol.

Don’t you just love this bad boy?

(Didn't know he existed until I came across this article saying that he's chosen as one of the top womanizing idols. Is he hot? Yeah, DEFINITELY! Who doesn't like bad boys? Haha.)

DONG YOUNG-BAE (TAE YANG)

How could we possibly forget about him when we already have T.O.P from Big Bang in our list here?

With the stage name of Tae Yang (which has the meaning of sun), he made his debut in 2006 as the vocalist of the popular Korean boy band Big Bang. He is also the first one to release a solo album from the group.

He has always been known for his amazing vocals and dancing skills.

“Why do fan girls go gaga over him?” you may ask.

Can’t you feel the rising temperature? Tae Yang totally defines the word, hot!

(Once again thanks to Ee Suen, I actually began to notice him after watching Wedding Dress's MV. Hot, why? Well, the picture above says it all.)

These guys definitely have extremely good looks with their own talents which have enabled them to dominate the entertainment industry throughout the world.

No doubt there are still a large number of hot male celebrities in the Korea entertainment industry these days, but here is the top five hottest male idols list that I’ve come up with, without ranking that is.

(Yes, it's not easy to give them a ranking. It's even hard for me to come up with this list because I'm not that into hot guys. I prefer cute guys. HAHA. Cute guys with killer smile that can actually melt my heart, I LIKEY. I should have come up with a "Korea's Top Five Cutest Male Idols" list instead. But 'hot' just sounds cooler so I guess that's why I decided to choose this as my topic.)

So how would you grade this if you were my lecturer? My lecturer's a big fan of Super Junior by the way. LOL.

Believe it or not, I actually had fun writing this. This is one of the most interesting topic/article/essay/piece of work that I've ever written for my assignment/project/school/college work.

2010-09-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

"放下了，便是拥有"

2010-09-19T01:05:00.001+08:00

Giving you all of my love and support,

Be strong, alright?

♥

2010-09-11T21:58:00.009+08:00

Oh buddha. I'm dying.

2010-09-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

Guess what I'm gonna do next. :)

2010-09-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

Bu zhi dao wei shen me, wo zong shi jue de ni na tian xie de dong xi shi gei wo kan de, ke neng shi wo xiang tai duo. Dan jiu suan bu shi xie gei wo, xian zai zai zhe li wo you xie hua xiang dui ni shuo.

Sui ran hui yi hai zai, dan shi gan jue yi jing xiao shi le. Hen zhao hen zhao wo jiu ming bai you xie shi shi bu neng mian qiang, deng dai mei you jie guo de shi geng shi yi zhong yu chun de zuo fa, dan shi wo yi zhi dou fang bu xia. Bu zhi dao cong ji shi kai shi, wo bu zai xiang ni le, yi qian de shi dui wo lai shuo ye yi jing bu zai zhong yao. Ni yong yuan dou hui shi wo de hao peng you hao jie mei hao xiong di. Dan shi, ma de, kan ni zhe si yang zi, dao le bie de di fang jiu wang ji diao wo zhe ge peng you, zhen de qian bian.

Almost 1am already, shit. I have to wake up at 6.30am. How to end this ar, must have a conclusion right.

Aiya jiu zhe yang la. Ni hui du gen ming bai cai suan.

2010-09-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

"被撞击,被伤害,我才感觉到我是真的在活着.其他时候我跟死了没两样"

I'm starting to accept the fact that life sucks.

But I'm not gonna give up.

2010-08-15T17:19:00.009+08:00

The k-drama addiction is back after so long.

My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho

Lee Seung Gi's the main lead.

He's the main reason for me to watch this.

♥

BUT,

The minute I saw him, *melts

Right away I knew it was love at first sight.

Noh Min Woo.

♥ (times 3)

AND

He looks so much like Lee Hong Ki!

♥ (times 5)

Kim Hyun Joong, Jung Yong Hwa...

I don't know why but I have this second male lead syndrome all the time.

You've got it right,

Noh Min Woo is the second male lead.

♥ (times 10)

DYING TO WATCH EPISODE 3.

2010-08-12T20:53:00.003+08:00

"If you love something, let it go.

If it comes back to you, its yours forever.

If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be."

I know what I like and what I want,

I know who are my true friends and who are not,

I know my limits and myself better than anyone else,

I know what I need to do and what's important to me,

I know who are the people that have always been there.

My mind has never been clearer than it is today,

I know that tomorrow will be a better day :)

Violet :)

2010-07-30T23:29:00.005+08:00

3 promises to myself :

I won’t waste my time worrying about what people think of me and I’ll do whatever I like.

I will try my best to get/keep my grades up.

I will never fall in love again.

Oh, I'll try not to sound like an idiot here.

2010-07-23T18:06:00.000+08:00

23 July 2010, 6.01pm

I'm now in college, with my laptop, watching Vampire Diaries.

Empty seats, people in groups,

I'm here, all alone.

2010-07-21T19:17:00.008+08:00

SEI COLLEGE MUI.
HAHAHA.

I find it hard to get hyper when my kawan baik's not here chatting with me on msn.

YES LWJ PLS GET YOUR LAPTOP REPAIRED ASAP AND TURN OUR KEYBOARDS' CAPS LOCK MODE ON WTF.

RAWRRRR.

AM LOOKING FOR A PRETTY STITCH BACKGROUND FOR MY DESKTOP :)

Wait, Stitch and I look alike, don't you think so?

HAHAHA DIN POH.

2010-07-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

祝你好运 :)

2010-07-13T18:30:00.009+08:00

不想再浪费时间

之前的我太天真了

Err sorry but I'm not trying to make you hungry.

Pictures were taken using my lousy camera.

But i edited them!
Ahem, I don't usually edit photos, so yeah.

Nice kan? :D

Haha shit why am I so mou liu.

But seeing this is better than seeing my pictures isn't it?

2010-07-11T23:49:00.003+08:00

My desktop background.

Awwwwwww, so cuteeee!

HAHAHA SYOK SENDIRI PULAK.

♥

2010-07-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

I wonder who reads my blog
O.O

Because I sound like a crazy woman who is trying to crave attention here wtf

O.O

WHY AM I SO LOA THESE DAYS. WHY WHY WHY TELL ME WHYYYYY.

I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO BEHAVE MYSELF.

I AM A GOOD GIRL.

WTF.

2010-07-01T17:53:00.006+08:00

THIS IS HOW I LOOKED LIKE TODAY.

Shit, why look so sohai one O.O

I'm in a good mood today,
even though I didn't manage to finish my fcking essay just now.
WEEEEEE

Accounts here I come!!

2010-06-27T16:08:00.005+08:00

I'm not even trying anymore,

and maybe it's better this way.

HI I'M HERE WITH MY PICTURE AGAIN. AHAHA

"CI SIN. GO TANJUNG RAMBUTAN LA YOU YONG CARMEN!"

2010-06-27T13:32:00.006+08:00

How do people fall in and out of love so easily?

How how how?

2010-06-26T12:51:00.002+08:00

I think I'm gonna upload silly sohai pictures of mine everyday from now on.

LOLWTF I'M CRAZYY.

2010-06-25T20:22:00.003+08:00

WHY DO I LOOK SO LALA.

WJ I DAMN CUTE RIGHT.

WTF.

2010-06-19T16:33:00.006+08:00

While part of me still wants to believe it’s possible, I know it’s not going to happen.

2010-05-22T21:39:00.005+08:00

The Sixth Year

I don’t think he will read this,
but I’ve always wanted to find a way to tell.

We used to talk about the silliest things, argue over the stupidest things. I would always laugh at your lame jokes and listen to your silly thoughts. I used to stay up late just to see you online, and wait for your text messages/msn even if I know that you'll never reply. The tiniest little things you did for me made me smile, it made me feel so special. You know my weakness, you know I can never say no to you whenever you need my help. I tried to move on. But the more I try to distance myself from you, the more I get hurt. Until now, I still cry whenever I listen to the song that reminds me of you and the good times we've had before.

I loved you.

Years have gone by. I don’t know if I still do,
But I will definitely miss you.

2010-05-20T14:10:00.004+08:00

YOU PEOPLE DON'T FCKING FAN 7 ME CAN OR NOT.

I've had enough.
I just wanna study and live in peace, please leave me alone.

What is right and what is wrong, I don't know anymore.

2010-05-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

I've got so much to say,
but where do I begin?

I hate the world.

2010-04-14T16:54:00.002+08:00

Today is a good day,
I'm starting to like my class.

Quote of the day:
BEING A HOMOSEXUAL IS NOT A CRIME!

I'm straight by the way wtf.

2010-04-08T21:55:00.005+08:00

I love Thursdays,
But today was definitely not a good day.

I was at home sitting in front of the computer, watching Taeyang’s Wedding Dress MV for the 2253181237th time while waiting for my dad to pick me up for lunch. Everything was fine until the house phone suddenly rang, and my mum answered it. It didn't feel right and it even sounded serious when I heard my mum said "Please don't hurt him". Quickly I closed the Youtube video and went up with my cell phone in hand.

I asked my mum what's going on and she said its the dai yi long who claimed that my brother, the guarantor of his friend's loan, is in his hands now and the friend has already run away with the money. If we don't pay 60k immediately he will..(you know what they will do). The guy in the phone, apparently my brother, was crying like shit and asked my mum to save him and all.

A few questions popped into my head.

Firstly, Shouldn't he be in the office now? Takkan the dai yi long goes to his office and then pulls him out in front of so many people right. It's Maxis wei dai lou, not some cheap capalang company wtf.

Secondly, you know, if money can save his own life of course he die die also will take out or find a way to get the sum of money immediately but not crying over the phone begging my mum to help him like this.

And lastly, I know it's not wrong or unusual for a guy to cry at this very moment. But the brother whom I know will, never, cry, even in this kind of situation.

See, must think critically kay! (too much of Critical Thinking classes wtf)

My mum was really worried and panicked and she even cried. Without delay I called my brother's phone, but he did not pick it up and I started to get worried as well. Just then, my dad came and he tried to talk to these people over the phone, my 'brother' is still crying in pain. And then I received a call..

"Yi kor..?"
"Um. What?"
"YI KOR!!"
"Yeah..what?"

"Ma! It's yi kor!!"

Fck. You know the ending now.

2010-04-02T23:17:00.003+08:00

Love that we can not have

Is the one that lasts the longest
Hurts the deepest
And feels the strongest

Thanks to Suen,
I'm now addicted to Taeyang's Wedding Dress!
:)

2010-03-28T10:57:00.006+08:00

I love this cute little heart-shaped hairband (AND MY HAIR COLOUR) :DD

2010-03-27T20:04:00.003+08:00

*blows off the dust

Dear diary,

It's not easy but I'm trying my best to adapt myself to the new environment. However, I find it hard to make new friends, I'm anti-social. I need to do something about it.

Love,
Carmen

2010-03-02T15:20:00.002+08:00

Why do I feel so empty inside?

2010-01-08T09:54:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA OMG

I think I look stupid here so of course must hide my face lah.

Anyway, I just wanna show you all my hair colour that's all.

And ya, it's shorter now too.

Okaybyebye.

2009-12-22T23:11:00.001+08:00

Hee, I went to this Interior Design Seminar with WeiJun at TOA. The speaker was Eric Leong, the celebrity interior designer. He's really funny and nice in person!

We had this moodboard workshop where we had to do some kind of presentation. Ohh the title's My Favourite Colour.

This is WeiJun's.

HAHAHA.

Just kidding. He's not that gay.

This is his real work.

And this is mine.

Okay la I know mine is not really that special or nice compared to many others but whatever because I've got Eric Leong's signature!!

Cannot see it?

I zoom in for you!

SEEEEE.
He wrote there "So sweet!" kekeke.
Of course not me but my work.

Ohhhh I have a photo with Eric Leong tooo.

Overall , I had a great time :)

Last but not least, THANK YOU WEIJUN, for being so yau yi hei. He accompanied me throughout the whole seminar even tho he has no interest in interior designing opps (pats on the back).

2009-12-20T16:39:00.006+08:00

Multimedia Design

~~Graphic Design~~

Interior Design

~~Fashion Design~~

~~Taylor's University College~~
~~Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman (UTAR)~~

~~Sunway University College~~

~~Segi University College~~
The One Academy of Communication Design (TOA)
~~Malaysian Institute of Art (MIA)~~
PJ College of Art & Design (PJCAD)

Limkokwing University of Creative Technology

~~Saito College~~
~~Inti University College~~

Okay, so now I've got three options left.
In fact, my dad has already paid for Limkokwing's registration fee omg.

Anyway, I'm still going for TOA's open day.

2009-12-14T21:31:00.004+08:00

Chinese paper was..
Okay I don't know what else to say other than WTF.

Yes who gives a damn about it SPM's over anyway.

I DO.

So what are your plans after SPM?
What course are you taking?
Sunway or Taylors?
What about The One?
LimKokWing? Inti? Segi?

I DON'T KNOW DON'T ASK MEEEE!!

WELL, actually..I do have plans.
There are so many things that I want/need/have to do.
Hee. Let's see..

Firstly, I want my driving license.

Second, I need a haircut..badly.

Side fringe long fringe short fringe highlights dye. Any suggestions?

Third, dental check-up hahah.

Fourth, CLEAR MY TABLE AND THROW ALL THE BOOKS AWAY.

No lah, I won't throw. Recycle at least still can get money.

Fifth, SHOP TILL I DROP.

And and and tidy up my wardrobe.

Next, look for a job. Part-time, full-time, anything.

Money money moneyy.

Eighth, hang out with friends.

Movies, karaoke sessions and so on.

Err what else?

Ahh yeah, have to visit colleges.

I need counselling :(

Okay, that's NOT all.
I'll update again when I feel like it byee.

2009-12-11T15:32:00.003+08:00

Hi all,
I'm back to blogging :)

I know lah ishh sorry for deleting all the old blog posts & messages again.
But please don't ask me why.

Ugrhh, Blogger's being bitchy.
It took me 76502547231 hours to upload a photo.

JUST ONE PHOTO DAMNIT TOTALLY RUINED MY MOOD.

So what do you mean by that?

It means I'm not uploading any photos for the meantime.

I shall go and take a nap now. Oppps.

Anyhow I will be back, I promise :)

♥ YCarmen

2009-12-08T16:07:00.003+08:00

She had never felt so useless before.

2009-10-23T16:28:00.003+08:00

Will update after SPM (18 Nov - 14 Dec).